As I’m writing this, it’s Easter Sunday, the day we celebrate Jesus’ resurrection.

It’s a celebration of God’s redeeming, self-sacrificial, and victorious love.
A love that transforms and changes lives.

It isn’t loud or boastful. It doesn’t demand applause or parade the good it does. It doesn’t even need to be understood by everyone. It is the highest form of love… a love that desires and sacrifices for the good and benefit of another.

Jesus showed us this kind of love.

“Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” (John 15:13)

That verse isn’t just a lofty ideal. It’s something God has been teaching me through deep, personal experience recently.

Love Finds You in Loneliness

To be honest, I’ve wrestled with a lot of emotions in the past while.

Many days, it’s the weight of loneliness, especially as I consider the path of singleness I believe God has called me to. There are moments where I ache, not just for a partner, but for the comfort of being understood, of not feeling so different.

Being asexual, or what some might call a eunuch in biblical terms, can feel isolating even in church circles.
I don’t experience attraction the way most people do, and at times, that reality feels heavy, confusing, and even unfair.

In the past, I used pornography to cope and to try to make myself straight.
But God has been healing me. And I just can’t live that lie anymore.
I’m simply not attracted to men or women.

So often, I sit in the pain and disillusionment.

I’ve looked around and asked, “God, why me? I’m disappointed. I don’t want to be alone.”
And when all I get is silence, I’ve felt anger rise toward Him.

But then, right there in that bitter honesty, where I’m not trying to perform or prove anything, His love meets me.

Not the kind of love that fixes everything instantly. But the kind that holds me.
The kind that says, “I see you. I understand you. You’re still My son. You are chosen.”

God’s love doesn’t always change our circumstances right away. But it does something even deeper:
It changes us.

Love is the Entire Point

Because of how God has been showing me His love in my brokenness, I’ve begun to deeply regret parts of my past.

Not in a toxic way, but in a way that makes me see the kind of person I want to become.

Growing up, I was very religious and legalistic, obsessed with rules and proving myself to God.
And out of my own self-hatred and misdirected passion, I was harsh with myself and with others.

Long story short, I became a preacher, fell away from the faith, became an atheist, decided to live as a gay man.
Then Jesus appeared to me. He physically healed me and led me through a process of emotional healing.
He also changed my orientation. I’m no longer attracted to men and am still not attracted to women.

Over time, I’ve seen miracles. I’ve seen Him answer bold prayers and touch the lives of others through them.
And now I’m at a crossroads. I’ve begun this ministry and am receiving direction from God about what’s next.

I believe I’ll see God work amazing miracles through me to reach and heal people.

But here’s the sobering truth: If I do all of these things but don’t have love, what’s the point?

Paul said it best:

“If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal… if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.” (1 Corinthians 13:1-2)

What a tragic story it would be to lay down my life, heal the sick, raise the dead, and yet not actually love people.

I believe that would deeply grieve the heart of God.

I’ve encountered the overwhelming love of God so deeply that I now see how easily modern Christianity can lose sight of what truly matters.

We often chase spiritual highs, material success, prophetic gifting, and those aren’t bad things, but they become distractions when they are disconnected from love.

You see, what we need is love.

Not the feel-good, self-serving kind of love that’s glamorized today.
But the self-sacrificial love of Jesus, that lays down reputation, comfort, even life itself if need be, for the good of another.

I want to be the kind of person who loves others the way Jesus has loved me.

And I don’t say this with a martyr complex:

• Even if it costs me, I’ll love.
• Even if I’m hated, I’ll love.
• Even if I’m rejected, I’ll love.

Because when I hated Jesus, when I told Him to F off, when I cursed Him, when I made plans to come against Him…
He loved me.

He died for me. Rose again. And pursued me relentlessly to bring me into His Kingdom.

I want to love people like that.
Nothing else matters if I don’t love.

You Can’t Give What You Don’t Receive

But here’s the thing:
You can’t walk in His love if you’re trying to manufacture it from within yourself.

It’s not about trying harder to be more loving, more patient, or more holy.
It’s about learning to receive His love.

And from that place, from overflow not effort, we can finally love others.

When you really sit with the truth of how deeply God loves you, even in your doubt, distress, and dysfunction, something in you changes.

You begin to see people differently.
You begin to recognize the image of God in the very people you once judged or ignored.

Love like that isn’t natural.
It’s supernatural.

I’m calling you to return to the Source.
Not to do more, but to be loved more deeply.

Love is the highest call.
Not signs. Not wonders. Not even perfect theology.
Those things matter, but not without love.

And the kind of love we need, and long to give, is already available to us in Jesus.

Step Into the Real Thing

This is your invitation come to Jesus.

Let His love transform you from the inside out by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Let it replace bitterness with compassion, confusion with clarity, and striving with rest.

The highest form of love isn’t flashy.
It’s not always understood.
But it’s the love that laid itself down for you and now invites you to do the same for others.

And in that love, you’ll find not just your calling, but your healing.

Also, if you don’t know Jesus yet, I want to share something with you.

Jesus is God. Over 2,000 years ago, He came to Earth as a man. He lived a sinless, perfect life, and then willingly laid down His life on a cross, sacrificing Himself for you.

He died, was buried, and on the third day, He rose from the dead.
Today, He is alive and reigns as the King of the Universe.

Why did He do all of this? Because He loves you.

When you place your trust in Him, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, He forgives you completely.
And He brings you into a real, personal relationship with God.

Upon trusting Him, something supernatural happens: you are born again. The Holy Spirit comes to live inside of you, and you begin a journey of knowing God intimately, not just knowing about Him.

This isn’t about religion. This is about a relationship with the One who made you and deeply loves you.

So trust Him.
Open your heart.
Let His love in.

He loves you more than you can imagine, and He’s been waiting for you to come home.

“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” – 1 Corinthians 13:13

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